A Glimmer of Light at the End of the Tunnel

After much pondering and exploring new ways of thoughts/beliefs AND speaking with my guru (you know who you are :)), I've come to the somewhat of a new understanding of life and what it has to offer. Don't get me wrong, I don't have any answers yet but all I can do is try to understand and change my outlook on life. I've decided to be more positive about things and be in a good mood everyday. Not that I wasn't trying to do this before but I think before I would just go with the flow and everyday was the same old same old. I felt nothing.

Lately, I've been feeling an excitement inside of me. My heart beats faster as in anticipation for something great soon. I would like to start my day everyday excited, how great would that be? I'm going to do my best to start taking initiatives in my life and do things that will feed my excitement. Hopefully by doing all of this I will develop a passion that I am lacking in my life.

Maybe all of this positive thinking is because Spring is finally around the corner...
I do believe that does has some impact on my emotions for sure. And hopefully this will be just enough to get my act together and do something worthwhile.

Dead End

Lately, I've been feeling like I'm at a dead end. Is this an early quarter-life crisis??? I'm not sure. After college and finding a job there isn't much expected of you...besides getting married and having kids. But what else is there? I mean is that it? I think I just feel lost at what to do next.

I'm lacking motivation and inspiration to do something that will fulfill my life. I'm searching for a meaning, a purpose...happiness. I feel stuck, stagnant, and bored. I need a life worth living! I'm merely just existing.